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17 March '03
2:30pm
Well at the moment I am chattin
away with my buddy Johnathan who lives in some other state, I met him on Bolt. But ummm, yah that is what I am doing. I'm
chattin away while thoughts of one of my fucked up "ex's" wanders through my mind. Yah I miss him and I still love him
but I know that I deserve better.... The good thing is I have not talked to him in awhile. THANK GOD! Yah when I tried to
call him once his ex picked up the phone and was all like "no, we are NOT going to accept this call!" and hung up the phone,
I just looked at the phone and was all like.... "WHAT THE FUCK????" and started laughing my ass off, even though all the butterflies
in my tummy got upset and started fluttering around. Hmmmmm......but yah.
4:25pm
I think I am seriously going INSANE.... wait....
I can't go insane..... u can't go somewhere if ur already there. Right? Or can u?? Hmmmm, now that
is something to seriously make u think. Gaaaaaawd, I need something to do. It is taking my vaccuum's dust filter forever
to dry!! I thought about using the blow dryer on it, but if I break it mommy will shoot me! aaaaaaah! I'M TOO YOUNG TO DIE,
I HAVE ONLY JUST BEGUN! ok, I'm calm, yah dude I was exaggerating :) hehe. lalalalala. ::yaaaaawns:: scuse me *burps*
double scuse me. Anywaaaays
21 March
'03
Well, I've lost one of my best friends. I'm not saying
I'm gonna talk trash about her, thats not my style. Even though she was doing it to me, with all her punk/stoner/skater friends....
but that doesn't give me the right to do the same to her and I won't. I'll miss her yah, and it tears me up inside - but hell
everyone knew this was gonna happen eventually.... I guess I just never saw it coming till it did happen. I know in my
heart I'll never forget her, and there will always be a little part of me that loves her.... but life goes on. I'd try
and get her back in my life - but I just really don't feel like "dealing" with anymore BS you know. She believes I think she's
annoying, but yah everyone can get a little annoying now and then, I mean I know that even I can
get annoying at times. But I never thought she was ALWAYS annoying. I can't help it if I'm an honest person
- conscience ridden. But yah, sadly enough its over and she's gone - all because of a little jealousy that I got
another best friend. No one ever said there was anything wrong with having 2.... Oh well
25
March '03
11:53am
*groggy* ::rubs eyes:: well I just woke up - good morning world. I
don't know what I will do today. Well except for meeting up with a friend over at Denny's later, but that is later. What to
do before then.... hmmm. Actually I think its time to clean my room and take some stuff I have back to someone, I found it
when I was cleaning my room a little last night. Completely forgot I had all this stuff... my bad. But yah I gotta take all
that back. I know, this is really interesting.
26 March
'03
8:31pm
Holy crap!! ::looks at watch:: where
did the time go??? Well, today was a good but loooong day. This morning I woke up at 7:45 am and had to be gone by 7:15.
I had a meeting with my Texas Rehablitation Commission case worker today to talk about career objectives for me. I am
gonna go to St. Phillips College! WOWY! ME?!?! COLLEGE?!?! u bet ur ass I'm goin to college, after I am finished taking Administrative
Computer Technology I am going to take business and hospitality. I'm going to open up my own club someday! Scary huh?
I'm really excited, I can't believe it! But for now since its gonna be about 2 years, I'm lookin for someplace else to work
so I can have money to pay for my car insurance, and to save up to buy my own car. And after my braces are off and college
is done I might move to california for about a yr or so to live with my best friend who is moving in a month or 2.
27
March '03
3:45pm
LOOK MOMMY, W O W ! ! I
' M A B I G K I D N O W ! ! !
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